Lemons don’t always make good lemonade, sometimes they are too bitter. I know, I know mixing metaphors, but I can’t help myself. After being in the hospital, two surgeries, waiting to see the doctor (yes still) and some other issues (non medical) that decided to rear their ugly head. I am exhausted, I feel tired and depressed. Yes I know that is a big word to throw around. But it seems no matter how hard I try, or how hard I work, it never seems like enough. I know i need to get back to the gym, but I seem to be lacking in the energy to do that as well, and that made me feel good. I really need to go.
I am working again, and I keep thinking that I should be working more, but I know that if I pick up more hours I will be in more pain than I already am.
So what do I do? I am tired and frustrated and things seem to fall apart all the time. Weight has stagnated, I eat to much and I know it. I am lost.